Priorities

In Expectations, I remarked upon the fact that I can indeed accomplish anything my heart so desires, and that in at least the past 3 years, I have successfully done so. Although at first I believed this to be just another sign that I was “living in a dream”, after some time I decided that this could not be the case. But there are definitely things that I haven’t done, that would have been reasonable things to do. A part of the reason why I haven’t done these certain things can be summed up in one word: priorities.

That is, what I choose to make happen (“actualize”) is based on what seems to have more reason to it [at the time]. Unfortunately, I have been caught in a few cycles– first ‘living in the moment’, something that ideally should not last past childhood, but unfortunately is a major problem for most civilized countries, and particularly for America.

Because America is so rich, we are spoiled rotten; anyone can easily live a decently without working a day of their life. We have social security, food banks, homeless shelters…support for our living so irresponsibly seems endless.

The second problem is addition. While lobbiests may attack cigarettes, alcohol, and illegal drugs of all kinds, society completely overlooks or ignores the greater impact that addiction can and does have: visual media: television, movies– visual media of all kinds is very addictive, and from experience I dare say far more that alcohol and smoking combined could even have.

It’s quite easy to overlook it, because the majority of visual media is easily accessible, and is not going away. But one you try to cut yourself off, the withdrawal effects will soon become clear. I have spent the greater part of that past three years trying to wean myself off of anime, and other visual media. Finally I am at the point where I can exercise some control, but I am still quite weak to it, and know that should the opportunity to watch anime again come up, I would definitely do so, and that is proof that I am far from free from this addiction.

But to me, this is not making excuses- or rather, it’s merely what I would have blamed in the past. Now I am at the point that I am ready to take full charge of my life. Nothing can stop me now. I won’t allow it to. I’ve already wasted way too much time relying on excuses and rationalizations.

I can do better than this. I know that I have the potential- I just need to utilize it. In the moment, as I have lived virtually my whole life up until now, I was great fun, and I was happy living in my comfort zone. But that’s no better than living on medication– a meaningless lifelong inhibition. It’s time to unlock my true potential- make something of myself.

Human beings lack the abilit to truly lookg beyond themselves– beyond what can be seen. They have limitations. They are fragile. They need to rely on ulterior incentives; motiovations.

But I am not just a human being. I have potential, and gifts that venture into the supernatural. But most importantly, I have self-awareness that none that I know of can surpass. It’s just about whether or not I want to unlock my true potential anymore. I have not come this far alone. I have become who I am through the actions of every person, thing, entity, and force in this universe, and I have an obligation to do what I know is right: Making full use of everything that I am.

While many others in this world, no– the majority– are ignorant and pathetic, I have been given abilities and awareness of things that can be likened to gods. With such a gap between me and the rest of the world, it would be a sin not do do all that I can to benefit the world anyway I can.

“Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn’t do it, sins.” – James 4:17

Few passages of the Bible are more true.