Prelude

th3g1vr.wordpress.com has the same exact original material as my jbcandid blog, and then continues on from there. If you remember, jbcandid for the longest time had 20+ blog posts that were completely empty, with just the names of the posts and a blank page after that. Most of those blank posts were eventually made posts in th3g1vr, as I was able to actually write (or in many cases, type) those posts a little while after migrating my material to th3g1vr.

 

Now jbcandid is a blog that I never shut down simply because there is no reason to, and it reminds me of the focus that I had prior to th3g1vr (jbcandid focused on writing to be honest with myself, whereas th3g1vr focused on the sharing the knowledge I acquired through self-analysis with the ignorant masses, that they might benefit from it.

 

My original incentive for starting writing about these things, as explained in “Video Games and Love” (my first post, both on th3g1vr and jbcandid) was that my insights about the various aspects of life might help people. when I started jbcandid, I abandoned this in favor of self-analysis (realizing that I couldn’t help other people if I can’t help myself, and the transition to th3g1vr was a personal milestone marked by a sense of self-trust that I had given myself a firm enought of a foundation that I was ready to share my journey, and what I learned from it, with other people.

 

since then, I have gone through more rough edges in my thought, arguably the most visible (though far from the worst) expressed in the last post I wrote before coming to Job Corps, “I can’t handle the truth”.

 

Currently, I’m working on finishing up what little untyped posts that I have, and then th3g1vr will remain as-is until further notice. I’m shooting for 200 total posts.

 

I’m stopping writing after that because frankly, I’m getting ahead of myself. As exciting as it is to write about stuff that most people won’t understand in their lives, the stuff I’m writing about is so high level that I can’t understand it. Most of what I write I can’t understand– rather, it makes sense, and sounds good, and I get good vibes about it….but I don’t actually understand hardly any of the things I write about. It’s probably mostly because I lack the education to understand it.

 

as I’ve written about before, there are two main types of truth in this world: knowledge and understanding/experience. the things I write about are knowledge, but I lack the understanding and experience to appreciate the things I “know”.

 

So yeah, what I write about may be truth, and really awesome truth at that, but it’s nothing but useless data until I understand it. the other more monitary issue is, that when I compile it into a publishable form, I would never be satisfied with the end-result if I were to do it as I am now.

 

Because I do not understand what I write, it would be impossible for me to properly convey my ideas in such a form that other people would understand. To package my writing into such a form, I first must understand it myself. Only then will my writing be able to reach its true potential, at least in regards to sociological impact.

I may well not compile th3g1vr into such a form for about 5 years or so (perhaps over 10), but when I finally do, it will be in the form of at least 5, if not 10 different books, each highly specialized, highly profound, and priceless in value. But until that day comes, I will leave th3g1vr up that those visiting this blog might continue to be inspired by it.