It seems that since going to Job Corps, he has found someone who inspires him. I wish him well as he goes forward.

friendle2@ that remains to be seen. As detailed in my Prelude post, it is my intention to finish up what remaining writing that I have not yet typed/published, at which point th3g1vr will remain as-is until further notice.

I will still continue work on essenceofthesoul however, as it’s more evident to me that, spiritual implications aside, it is a work of fiction.

By ceasing all work on th3g1vr, I will (hopefully) kill the part of myself that is associated with th3g1vr, and as this is the primary source of my pride, it should allow me to perform a controlled Ego death; from there, the possibilities are boundless.

friendle2@ That would be the most obvious solution, but unfortunately easier said than done. Humans are inherently imperfect, and I far more than others because of how I have striven to complicate things (complexity is the root of imperfection).

For this reason, I lack the ability to do my best, because I get lost in my own reality in the process, because I am too complicated for

myself.

I sometimes wish that I could be someone’s slave, because in such a scenario, the self would become irrelevant (no free will), and so I would be “free” to do my best, because I would not be limited by my pride.

In that sense. my inability to do my best is ironic, in that the reason is what in fact would normally be the motivator for one to do their best in the first place: Pride.

~ Bren

Since then I have converted between gnosticism, Christianity, Esoteric Christianity, and finally back to gnosticism. Out of all of religious philosophies I’ve bound myself to (or should I say, ‘tried’ to bind myself to), gnosticism has been by far the most compatible.

Since I wrote this post, I’ve written several other posts, either re-interpreting Bible passages, or clarifying certain aspects of the allegorical aspects of the Bible, focusing mostly on the spiritual component, and the complications caused by the imperfections inherent and (I would agree) essential to communication.

As I learn more about the Gnostic philosophy (in particular of the Valentinian sect) I am continually confounded as I realize that hundreds– perhaps thousands of the ideas that I came up with independently of education– are all part of the gnostic philosophy. Because I essentially came up with Gnosticism through *pure* intuition, that is plenty powerful evidence– at least for me– that Gnosticism is the path to truth. At the very least, even if I had not known about Gnosticism at all, I would still be a *natural* gnostic anyway, which I must say is awesome!

Thank you for your comments, they are much appreciated ;-)

Research Gnostic Christians and Nomina Sacra. They and others interpret much as you do. Freke and Gandy wrote The Jesus Mysteries, where they found a common interpretation dispersed throughout the west and near east religions. Different stories, but the same underlying truth.

I think you are about to become an initiate into the mysteries. You are on the path. And your inner sense of there being more to it than is commonly taught is right on target. Follow your intuition while controling your fear. good luck, but again, I at least beat you to your interpretation. lol.
Pelagian7

Love,
lindie.