“to lose itself in order to find itself, that is the way of spirit”- Hegel (although it’s copied from my philosophy notes, so it’s probably not a direct translation)
I think that this applies to all aspects of life, and- that being said- I have a lot of work to do.
So that you will know what I’m talking about, I’ll break it down:
“to lose itself”= chaos
“to find itself”= absolute
In the past I would have thought of myself as anything but chaotic, but that was because I did not truly recognize what cause was. I thought of chaos as the complete absence of reasoning, judgment, deliberation. But this is not accurate, as exemplified by chaos theory. Chaos is, rather, the complete absence of absolutes. I have no absolutes, so this makes me very chaotic. So as things stand, I am taking the path of the Negative Essence, by which I would never find peace or satisfaction.
Therefore “to lose itself in order to find itself, that is the way of spirit” means:
For the spirit to satisfy its potential (and thus find peace), it must continually balance between absolutes and the lack thereof. This might be the key to the true “synthesis” between the Id and Ego (Negative and Positive Essences), after all, Id= chaos, and SuperEgo= absolute. This is where the SuperEgo comes in, but first I’d like to point out of couple of things:
First, in previous posts, and notably Agony, I mistook the SuperEgo as being the Ego- so much of the time “Ego” is mentioned (particularly in Agony) “SuperEgo” is what should be said. One of Freud’s sucessors, Carl Jung, further refined Freud’s philosophy by adding a divide recognizing the Personal Unconscious, and the Collective Unconscious. I made the mistake of using “Ego” to refer to the Personal Unconscious, assuming the SuperEgo to be the Collective Unconscious.
Second, the synthesis is actually produced by the Ego- emphasis on produced. From what I gather, the Id, Ego, and SuperEgo are reflection of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Please note that when I use these terms, they are not to be interpreted as being in compliance with standard Christian beliefs.
Warning: TANGENT– While I believe that my beliefs are drawing closer and closer to those of Christianity, they will probably never be compatible; In fact, if my writing is appealing to others, I might even develop a cult :P. No seriously though, One of the things of my top ten “world domination” is to completely reinterpret the Bible. Actually, in the plan is to the possibility of several interpretations for each phrase, verse, passage, chapter, theme, book, etc. However, utilizing a wiki system, released under the Creative Commons License, it would definitely be doable. After all, The Bible is the most popular book, and the Bible itself infers that it should be interpreted democratically (2nd Peter 1:20-21 — see http://www.twopaths.com/faq_BibleTrue.htm for more info) End TANGENT —
But basically, my main point is that, for several reasons, it’s a very bad thing that I have no absolutes. To be honest, at the time I first starting writing this post (a few months ago!) I was very confused (hence the time delay) and so really it would be pointless to cover exactly why it’s a bad thing, because it would be best to cover that extensively in posts prepared for it. For now I’ll go with an analogy- Neon Genesis Evangelion. Towards the end of the original series (i.e. the Human Instrumentality project) the main character (which BTW I identify with so much it’s scary) Shinji explores the significance of limits.
Without limits we would be completely free, but we wouldn’t know what to do. Everything would be one big blob, we ourself could not distinguish ourselves from it- life itself could not exist without absolutes. By creating limits, we are able to better understand and interact with our surroundings, but there is an inevitable price for that, which is imprisonment.
This is why I believe that an infinite God cannot exist- in order for God to recognize himself, to understand himself, and to recognize and interact with his creation, there must be limits- otherwise he would not be able to distinguish himself from anything else. As I first began to understand while writing this post, our souls likely also inhabit us so that they could better interact with themselves, and creation, also being infinite otherwise.
It could just be one soul, perceived as many- there are (ironically) an infinite amount of possibilities as to how the soul(s) interact with us, or “possess” us. Perhaps God is finite so as to interact with himself and his creation, and souls are the offspring of his thought.
Well, once again I’ve gone off in a tangent- I’ll go into more detail on this (hopefully soon) in future posts.